MY DIARY (136)

5.9.2012
I have this feelings,I don't really know what it is,either sad,happy,anger,excited,nervous or all at once but I know what's the cause and I'm gonna keep it to myself,it'll be my own little secret..even if I tell you guys,you wouldn't understand..but the problem is,the feelings make me wanna throw up..it's strange...Luckily,after my break,I don't have the feelings anymore,maybe because I don't think about it so much...

THANKS,
ZAC

4TH MEMBER???

I've been thinking lately about adding one more person into our group(me,A and S)...A and S have said about it before but at that time,I didn't really think about it because of the reason they gave...but now I think we should.The reason is kinda selfish...it's because I want it.The thing is,there are 3 of us,though I always said that they're my best friends,I don't really remember if they have said the same thing about me...maybe they have and I just forgot and now I kinda start to believe what people said,that we can only have 1 best friend.When I was in high school,I feel like I'm close to S but then,I feel like I'm closer to A because he helped me a lot and S is kinda far away but sometimes I feel like A and S are closer than I am with any of them because they have a few things in common,I had the same thing too but as time goes by,I just don't really interested anymore...So,that's why I think we should have a 4th member,someone that habe something in common with me..I know it's hard,impossible maybe but I hope we could find him or he find us...I know A sometimes view my blog and he might be pist-off when he read this.So,if you do read this A,I am really sorry if you're mad but I don't know to whom am I suppose to share what I feel,I can't straight away talk to you,that'll be awkward and I can't tell my family,they might think I'm being ridiculous or maybe not but I don't wanna take a risk...once again,sorry A and S but it's the truth...

THANKS,
ZAC