MY DIARY (87)

25.5.2012(98)
I'm a bit worry right now,first it's because the spectacles is still here.. :O..,second,I feel kinda happy today(I don't know why).Remember that I said I don't want to be myself and be happy because something bad might happen,so that's why I'm worry at this moment.I'm afraid he'll come and collect his spectacles today(lets hope not)then,I'm doomed...but I'm not showing my happiness,instead I"m making a serious face... :).Yesterday,when I just arrived home,G called me,I didn't know it was her at first because she's not using her own number.So I answered the phone and suddenly she asked where I am,so I said I just arrived home and she said she needs a favor,she wants me to buy her a credit top up,so I said I couldn't help her because I just arrived and I rode a car home,so I can't ask my sister to go out again just to buy the credit and I told er I could give her some credit from my phone but she refused because she needs a RM5 credit.Finally I said if that so,I couldn't help her,then she hung up.After that,I text her and asked why she needs that much of credit,who is she wants to call..you know what she said???she said it was for her mother...it's crazy,right???So I said to her,why didn't she ask her brother,she replied he's useless and his bike is broken and she said "Can you help me or not?because I don't want to talk about it anymore",I said I can't and I'm sorry,I asked her to tell her mother that I was sorry,then she replied "Ok"...it's ridiculous,right??I mean,if you're her mother,would you ask your daughter's friend,that you never even meet,to buy you a phone credit??It's nonsense...I think it's time for me to stay away from her because I feel like she's just using me,like I'm her tool(I told you guys before)and her rebound guy because a couple of days ago,she text me and said that she miss her ex,or something,so I gave her advises and suddenly she called me honey,sweet heart but I didn't say any of that to her back,I just told her that it's funny and not very comfortable for me as a friend(but I said it in a nice way)and I'm not gonna change that because I care about her but I don't love her and I don't think her boyfriend and I'm sure she feels the same...but now,I don't know if I could be her friend anymore because I think she feels like I'm her tool and her rebound guy.Ok,I maybe I said I'll try to help her somehow but I said I'll try,I didn't say I will..So,I have to end this...I text with A just now and I told her about my problem.We both have the same idea,which is I should call her and solve this thing.I think I'll call her tonight..I hope everything will be ok..I always told myself that I don't want any drama after high school because I'm tired of that but there it is right now.. "Great"


26.5.2012(97)
I didn't call G yesterday because I didn't get any privacy,my sister came in to my room and there was a lot of thing that I have to do..so,I didn't call her...but hopefully I could do it tonight..wish me luck!..Today,I had an argument with my sister again(the same person as in 'My Diary 28').This time we argued about American Idol 11,she said Phillip Phillip doesn't deserve to win but I said he does.She said he won because of people sympathy about his operation.She is so whatever,she is so lame...LOL..I think she's really pist-off with me...hahahah...My sister talked to me when I had my break and I talked to her back...Tonight,I'm definitely going to call her...


27.5.2012(96)
I called G yesterday,it was a bit strange because I was nervous( I guess)but I got to tell her what I wanted to say.Her explanation was shocking,I was surprise myself...she said I'm her love one :O and she's sorry for what she did,she didn't realize it before..She said she does like me before but she had a few guy friends,so she decided to forget how she feels and she was afraid to be honest to me about her feelings...I was speechless,I didn't know what to say but then I told her that we should meet and after that,we'll see what happen..and she agreed but we haven't decide when...The problem is,I'm not really excited but I feel rather strange...A said maybe because it's my first date,so that's why I feel that way...I don't really know...A helped me a lot about this..so thank you so much A!...I'm not in a very good mood because in 2 weeks,S will be going back to Penang and in 3 weeks A would be going to Pahang and I don't know when will we meet again... :(...You know what,I've decided that I'm not gonna think about the meet with G and about my best friends going away..I'm just gonna have fun and be happy like before... :)...Hopefully nothing bad will happen..I think I know why I don't feel excited about going out with G,maybe it's because of the way she acted,you know,about all the problems that I have with her before...maybe that's the reason I don't feel happy...I'm not gonna let that ruin my off day tomorrow.I'm just gonna be happy and forget about it.I hope I could online tonight... :)


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24.5.2012(99)
I'm going to buy a guitar next month! :)... I'm alone at work right now and I started working half and hour early because baldy have something to do,which is I don't even know(like always)...And now he's back....I just remember something,today would be the 8 months and 3 days anniversary for 'My Diary'...time flies really quick,right???I still remember the first time write 'My Diary',I was talking about weather...LOL..I wrote about a lot of things that happened on my everyday life and it is quite a lot,though some are pretty dull...LOL..I still can't believe it's already 8 months..WOW!


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23.5.2012(100)
Yesterday I wrote on my Facebook status that I already give up hoping but then I deleted it because I realized that it's not true,I'm still hope for something sometimes but I have to say that I do give up hop eon a few people,for example,I give up hoping that they would reply my text or something but I never give up hope on God,I'm hoping for the best,hoping on something good to happen...sometimes I'm hoping on something impossible...but I still hope...maybe because I still have faith,even though I didn't realize it sometimes but luckily I got some help to remind me about it... :) I have something to tell you all...this might sound crazy but sometimes I feel like I wanna slap my face because sometimes I kinda forget how ugly I am,so I acted like I'm one of the good looking guy...kinda pathetic,right??When I realize that I acted that way,I would be so embarass because it's so stupid to behave like a handsome guy when in fact I'm not and never will... :( This is on of the things that I give up hope on,I'm trying to look better but I know it won't work,so I give up hoping that I will be a better looking guy....


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22.5.2012(101)
I had fun yesterday,woke up at 6.40a.m. and made breakfast,chocolate chip pancakes! and it was delicious.Then,I was online for a few hours,listening to 'Arctic Monkeys',I can't believe did that but their songs was amazing,most of it.Thank you so much for those who told me about them.. :) I took a nap yesterday afternoon and online again..LOL.. Now I'm at work :( but I have a good news,August would be the last month I'm working here,which is another 3 months and then I'm out of here! :)..I already counted and found out that I have 101 days before my last day here,so I decided to make a countdown until the 31st of August.. :) I'm gonna write it next to the date of today...


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20.5.2012
I heard the song 'Graduation' by Vitamin C just now and suddenly I thought about my high school,especially on my senior year,it was amazing,though I wish I would someday forget a few incident but most of it was awesome because I was like really had fun and enjoy myself.I even changed my hair style..LOL..You know what,when I look back all the thing that happened to me in high school,it's almost like a movie,well maybe not exactly the same but kinda because I have to best friends,I'm kinda happy-go-lucky guy and I suddenly been accused of trying to steal someone's girlfriend..see,kinda like a movie,right???..When I was 17,I always think that my life was pretty boring,but actually,now I realize that I had a normal childhood and I also have a movie-like teenage life..LOL..pretty awesome,right???


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ZAC