MY DIARY (157)

29.10.2012
I went to the cyber cafe to online,so I have updated my blog....I have a decision to make,I don't know wether I should keep the secret or let go of it.If I keep the secret that means I'm keep the sad part and the good part but if I let go of it,I would be horribly wounded...So I don't know what to do and with the problem with my laptop,I already sent it to a shop and they'll see what's the problem but they said it might be 2 possibilities and both cost quite a lot...so,I really in trouble....

30.10.2012
I still haven't make my decision and I don't have much time left because I decide if I want to let go of it,I'll do it tomorrow because tomorrow kinda related to the sad part of my secret....My laptop is fixed,BTW.There wasn't any major problem.So now I can online at home.....No matter what my decision is,tomorrow is still gonna be a sad day because of the sad part....I prayed to God tonight to give me a sign for me to choose...let's hope God will give me a sign,though I kinda made up my mind....

THANKS,
ZAC

MY DIARY (156)

24.10.2012

I realize that lately I'm kinda better,I talked a few more words but somehow,I sort of pulled myself back,try to stay quite,not on purpose,maybe because I'm getting use of being isolated.I hope I could be better,I don't want people to think that it's because of the secret but it's not,it's because I just don't know what to say...

25.10.2012

My laptop went crazy again,I might not online today and maybe tomorrow too because it's Eid day(the same as in 'My Diary (5)')...I hung out with A and S today,I had fun though I didn't talk so much because I don't have anything to say(maybe)...but really,I did have fun...thanks guys..I was observing A and S and my theory(in '4th Member?') was true and luckily A didn't ask about it...I gotta say,from my point of view,I did kinda act like I wanted but not the being-quite-act,it was when I talked... :)

26.10.2012

It's Eid day!!! I had fun today...A and S didn't come to my house,though I already invited them...Something funny happened today,my cousin's baby boy wanted me to carry him,for a few times...it was a bit awkward for me because I never carry a baby before..Luckily I didn't drop him..LOL..

27.10.2012

My laptop is still not working,I have to take it to a shop,maybe on Monday.I tried to fix it yesterday but to no avail.I'm kinda sad and pissed off to find out that I might not be able to online at home for a few days..I don't know what's the problem or is this a sign that I shouldn't think about the sad part of my secret??I don't know...

28.10.2012

I dreamed about X this morning but it was a short one,nothing special...it's strange,right??I didn't think about her before...I was actually hoping to dream about someone else but I got her..how unfortunate...

THANKS,

ZAC

MY DIARY (155)

18.10.2012
OMG!!!!There are 2 things that kinda make me pissed off today.First,my sister,I talked a few words to her and she talked to me a lot.I was like "WTH?I said a few words and you think I will listen to every word you say?" but I didn't say it to her face.I mean,I'm still who I was,I'm still being quite...duh!...Second,is my brother,he asked me to help him do some research for retail.He wanted to open his own shop.And suddenly,he want me to work with him.I know it's a good thing but I don't think I can work with him,I can't barely stay with him for a day and he wants me to work with him?And just now,he insisted that I install What's App on my phone,so that we can communicate easily...WTH!!..I mean,I could help him a bit and I did but I don't think I can work with him...

20.10.2012
My computer when crazy this past few days.I don't know what's the problem...but I thinks it's kinda okay now(hopefully),I might online again tonight or tomorrow...

21.10.2012
I had fun today,my computer is getting better,so I online for a few hours.I will try to update my blog tomorrow.I did something crazy today,it was raining this afternoon and there wasn't any thunder or lightning,so I decided to let it pour on me...yeah,I was standing in the rain,I twirled and just enjoyed the moment,it was fun,truly...I was very spontaneous ,I rarely did something like that...my family don't know about it(I think) LOL... and right now,I'm watching 'Hairspray' on tv... :)

THANKS,
ZAC

MY DIARY (154)

16.10.2012
Tonight,we had a surprise party for my sister's birthday.It's not a big party,just me and my family.We all had a great time,though there's a few things I wish I have but I didn't but it's ok because,there's a reason why I didn't have it,so I'm fine with it and I really had fun tonight,I laughed so hardly when we were playing with the cake's cream.... :)

THANKS,
ZAC

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