2.4.2013
Remember when I said I wanna lay low?Well,actually it's not really working because the "spotlight" is already on me since I'm one of the 'A' student in my class...but I'm still trying and I do appreciate the attention,just that,you know how I will behave if I'm being too comfortable...I wanted to be a wallflower,though it sounds crazy but I think I'm better like that...BTW,about me being tease at school for acting like a sissy,I never told my family because I don't want them to worry about me,I know they'll freak out if I tell them and they will find those people who called me 'sissy' and stuff...so,that's why I keep it as secret from my family but my best friends know about it,obviously......
4.4.2013
I'm pretty sure that being lay low,isn't working because the attention is still on me and I've started to talk more again...I tried to lay low but my surroundings doesn't let me...Tomorrow I'll be going home for the weekend by commuter but not alone this time,I'll be with one of my girl friends(the one that I mentioned in My Diary:Life As A College Student 1)..I'm thinking about telling her why I acted strange a couple of weeks ago but I don't know if it's the right thing to do.I'm worry that if I told her how I behaved in school,she might see me differently,but maybe not in a bad way...I really don't know...BTW,there's a lot of things about myself that my friends here don't know,like they don't know I like cooking,playing guitar,drawing,write novels and few others...I know all of you must be wondering why I didn't tell them,it is because I just wanna keep it to myself,so that they won't ask me questions or something ,hence,the "spotlight" won't be on me,though it's already is but at least if I don't tell them about my hobby,the attention won't be too much on me...
THANKS,
ZAC
