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Tuesday, January 28, 2014

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (53)

27.1.2014
I'm back in college..I arrived at my new house yesterday night and again,I felt very sad....I slept late last night because I can't sleep,so I just read the novel that I bought last year....You know what,I think I left something at my house...my heart...and it's not a good thing...It's 10 pm right now and I'm lying on my bed in my bedroom at my new house..I don't really feel too sad anymore,maybe because I managed to go through classes today without any trouble,hopefully tomorrow too...or maybe because I was chatting with Y again tonight and that she said I'm a shy guy.. :)....Though it's maybe ridiculous but I have to say that I'm kinda miss my old hostel...I miss the time that I spent there and the memories that was built there...but maybe there's a reason why I wasn't meant to stay there anymore... :)

28.1.2014
I was suppose to go home today but unfortunately,,y lecturer decided to have a class tomorrow morning,so I have to stay for one more night.. "awesome"..but somehow,I don't feel too sad..maybe because this afternoon at college,I bought Y a giant fried sosage because I promised to buy her that because she helped me checked for my result and about my pre-subject registration...I was kinda shy because I gave it in front of my housemates and a few of my classmates...but they said I was a gentleman for doing that...I talked to Y just now and she said she feels embarrassed but like a shy kinda embarrass,not like a horrible embarrass..but she thanked me anyway..but she also said that she was worried what my girl friends might say since they were there too but I don't think they notice..but I convinced her that they won't say anything...You see,the only reason why she was worried was because it happened once last semester,I don't know if I told you about it,but it was a misunderstand,my girl friends didn't say anything bad about her or angry at her,they just stared at her because they know I like Y...I really hope Y would stop thinking that my girl friends might talk something bad about her because they are not like that and maybe they all could be friends...but I still don't know how to convince her that...BTW,I can't wait to go home tomorrow!

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ZAC

Sunday, January 26, 2014

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (52)

25.1.2014
I'm going back to college tomorrow...ughh...and just to make things "better",my brother got the dengue fever...I don't know if you have it on other countries..but we have it in Malaysia...it's a fever that brought by a mosquitoes..it's quite dangerous..."awesome"..I don't know why these things happen when I have to go back to college??..and the worst thing is that I HAVE to go to college!..but I'm quite fortunate because somehow there's a small things that happened that sorta cheer me up...

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ZAC

Saturday, January 25, 2014

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (51)

24.1.2014
I'm going back to college this Sunday.. :( ..I had to because next week I got quizzes and assignment to submit...A and S are on their semester break,so we went out yesterday..We had dinner and talked about our high school memories..It was fun..My dad is okay,but there was some nights where it wasn't so okay..I'm kinda worry about him especially since I'm going back to college the day after tomorrow..I hope everything will turn out fine...

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ZAC

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (50)

21.1.2014
I'm at home and I didn't go to college today and yesterday too and probably the whole week but hopefully not because my friend told me that we have an assignment to do and we have to submit it by Friday...*sigh*..I don't know how am I gonna complete it but I asked my mentor/lecturer to tell my lecturers about my situation,hopefully they would understand....I accompanied my dad to the hospital this morning for his check up and everything is okay...I felt old when I did the payment and the registration for my dad..LOL....A will be home this weekend and I hope we could hang out...

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ZAC

Saturday, January 18, 2014

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (49)

18.1.2014
I didn't go to college last Thursday because I was helping my dad and thanked God he's not bitter anymore...Yesterday my dad was discharged but he needs to be in a wheelchair but until today,it's still quite hard for him to get on the wheelchair..so I might have to skipped class again next week to help him out...

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ZAC

Friday, January 17, 2014

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (48)

14.1.2014
I'm packing my bags to go to my new house because I have to go to college tomorrow.. :(..I feel sad because I didn't have enough rest and enough time...My dad is schedule to do the operation tomorrow but not sure at what time and if he does,I have to go back home..so I have to wait for my sister's text tomorrow...I arrived at my new house at about 8 pm and my housemates isn't here..my sister and brother helped me set up all my stuff...and honestly,after they went back home and I was alone,I felt terribly sad...it was horrible..I really hope I will be strong to face this situation..wish me luck!

15.1.2014
I was at college when I received a text saying that my dad was already in the operation room,so a few hours later,my sister came and pick me up to the hospital...My dad was safely gone through the surgery but because of the bius and the slight of pain,he was bitter the whole time I was there...that was scary..but hopefully tomorrow will be better...

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ZAC

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (47)

13.1.2014
I didn't stay at the hospital last night because today I have to spend most of my time,buying stuff that I need for my new house,since I'm going back to college tomorrow.. :( ...so I need all my energy but tonight I will stay at the hospital...My classes starts today actually but I didn't go and "amazingly",all but one of my classmates did go to class this morning but a few others came to the afternoon class...My feelings right now is sad,because I have to leave home and couldn't spend my free time with the people I care about(except on holidays and weekends) and had to say goodbye,nervous,because I'm gonna have a new lecturers and God knows how they are(hopefully they're not strict),and tired,because I don't have much rest since my dad admitted...Well,I guess what I wrote yesterday was right...I hope everything will be okay....

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ZAC

Monday, January 13, 2014

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (46)

12.1.2014
You know what,sometimes I feel like my life is kinda like in a movie...for instance,right now I spend most of my times at the hospital,taking care of my dad and at the same time,my third semester starts tomorrow..so,I couldn't do any preparation and I couldn't spend my few last holidays with the people that makes me happy(besides my family and my best friends)...it's sorta like a movie,right?Where the main character had to go somewhere far and was about to say goodbye to his/her lover but something happen that make him/her left in a rush and couldn't say goodbye...Awww,so sad...haha,just kidding...but it's true,my life is kinda like a movie sometimes...but again,maybe everyone feels the same way about their life...My family and I were informed that my dad will not be doing the surgery today because of his sodium level,which is too low..so it has to be pospone next week but aren't sure on what day..that means I have to go to class next week but maybe not tomorrow...

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ZAC

Saturday, January 11, 2014

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (45)

10.1.2014
My dad has been in the hospital for about 2 days and on Sunday he'll do an operation to help him walk again but not straight away,of course,but actually the operation is not 100 percent confirm to do it this weekend since there might be some factors that cause it to delay...I went to my college yesterday and registered for my thirs semester...I was kinda tired because I was at the hospital the before until yesterday morning...I told my mentor which is also a lecturer,that I might have to skipped my classes next weekend because my dad is about to do a surgery and I need to take care of him afterward,so she said I can do that but I need to write a formal letter and a written document or something as a prove that my dad is under a surgery...but that's not so important,the most important thing is that I hope my dad is gonna be alright..

11.1.2014
Sometimes I wish that I have someone who is an optimistic and have a strong faith..because I'm not that kind of person and honestly,it's hard to find someone like that..like in my situation,though I don't really show it but actually,I'm pretty worry about my dad and this surgery thing,I wish I have someone who would say,"Don't worry,your dad is gonna be fine.He's gonna go through the surgery and he's gonna be healthy again and start walking again.You worried for nothing," something like that and in a very convincing way,like they actually believe in what they just said...so it would somehow makes me feel better...but I guess that's really hard to find...BTW,A and S already knew about my dad,so are some of my college friends...Tonight,I am taking care of my dad again with my eldest brother because it's been like 2 nights I didn't do it since I had a slight of fever 2 days ago but I'm better now...

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ZAC

Friday, January 10, 2014

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (44)

8.1.2014
I'm currently at the hospital,taking care of my dad with my oldest brother.He fell on the floor late last night,at first we thought it wasn't so bad but when he said it hurts to move his left leg,we suspected that it might be broken or something...So we took him to the hospital and was confirmed that he has a fractured on his left hip...He is now admitted at the hospital but he's ok,not in a coma or something...I didn't sleep for about 24 hours but luckily on the evening my other brother and sisters came and finally I got to rest but for only a couple of hours...Though it's embarrassing but I have to tell you that I did cried for like 3 times but my family didn't see because I don't want them to anyway...I'm not sure yet if I want to register for my college tomorrow since I'm with my dad until tomorrow morning and God knows if I could get a chance to sleep...but we'll see about that...I don't plan on telling A and S yet since they are in college and I don't wanna worry them...but maybe I would tell them over the weekend...

9.1.2014
I remember that once my dad did one of the things that I will never forget my whole life.It happened when I was quite young,maybe around 7 or 8,I think..I don't really remember how it'd happened but remember that it was late night and someone was sleeping on bed and I was freaking sleepy so I decided to sleep in one of our bedroom that's empty and there was no fan but slept there anyway because I was too tired and you know what my dad did?He came into the bedroom and he made a fan from a newspaper,he moved his hand from left to right,so quickly and hence there's wind,so that I won't be sleeping uncomfortably..I will never forget that moment...that's why I love my dad... :) The reason I'm telling you this is not because he's dying or anything,just to tell you how nice my dad is...

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ZAC

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (43)

5.1.2014
On Thursday I'll be going to college to register for my third semester but I'll be back home after that or maybe after I clean up my new house there....You know what I'm feeling right now?...I feel sad,I know that I shouldn't feel that way because it's been a year since I started college but I do..I do feel sad..I'm such a baby,am I?..haha...but it's true,actually,I never really think of it this way before and it came to me because I was planning about what to tell my friends if they ask me why I'm not happy,I planned to say,"I'm sad because though I go home every weekend but it also means that I have to say goodbye to the people I love every week and everyday that I'm far away from them,I hope and pray that I would see them again on the next weekend.Every time that I got a text or a call,I hope it's not a bad news.And I have to make sure that that weekend I will spend as much time as I could with the people that I love,making every second count because that weekend could be the last time I would see their faces."And it made me realize,I guess it is true,that is why I always feel sad to leave home and of course because that I have to leave my current life.

6.1.2014
DDo you ever feel like even though that person is far away but when you are at home,you feel like they're with you?Not in a creepy way but more like,happy way..have you ever feel that?..I do,all the time.When I'm at home,though that person isn't really there,but I feel like they are.I guess you could that crazy,I think so too sometimes,but hey,you do whatever that makes you happy,right?..And because of these "feeling" is what makes it hard for me to go back to college and live far away from home... *sigh*..but sometimes we have to make sacrifices for the better.

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ZAC

Sunday, January 5, 2014

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (42)

4.1.2014
Omg!You know what,I have like 8 days before I start ,y third semester!..owhh,it's horrible....I hate it sometimes when I see the people I know growing up and realize that they're gonna fall in love with other people except you....Speaking about love,the other day I was chatting with Y and suddenly she was talking about she's not gonna fall in love again and that love is hurtful and stuff...she's been talking about this for quite sometimes and I never really got the chance to say my opinion and the other day,I did it,I said "Don't blame love for what happened.Because it's not love that hurted you but it's the person that you fell in love with",but she doesn't agree with me and she told me that she don't wanna talk about it again(babe,you're the one who brought it up..haha)..I don't know if she would take my advice because she think that I might not understand her because I never been in a relationship...but she haven't said that in front of me because if she did I would tell her that even if though I've never been in a relationship or maybe never will,doesn't mean I don't know what love or falling in love is and at least for her,she got the chance to feel loved back even though it was just for a short while but for me?I never get that chance...

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ZAC

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