MY DIARY (157)

29.10.2012
I went to the cyber cafe to online,so I have updated my blog....I have a decision to make,I don't know wether I should keep the secret or let go of it.If I keep the secret that means I'm keep the sad part and the good part but if I let go of it,I would be horribly wounded...So I don't know what to do and with the problem with my laptop,I already sent it to a shop and they'll see what's the problem but they said it might be 2 possibilities and both cost quite a lot...so,I really in trouble....

30.10.2012
I still haven't make my decision and I don't have much time left because I decide if I want to let go of it,I'll do it tomorrow because tomorrow kinda related to the sad part of my secret....My laptop is fixed,BTW.There wasn't any major problem.So now I can online at home.....No matter what my decision is,tomorrow is still gonna be a sad day because of the sad part....I prayed to God tonight to give me a sign for me to choose...let's hope God will give me a sign,though I kinda made up my mind....

THANKS,
ZAC

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24.10.2012

I realize that lately I'm kinda better,I talked a few more words but somehow,I sort of pulled myself back,try to stay quite,not on purpose,maybe because I'm getting use of being isolated.I hope I could be better,I don't want people to think that it's because of the secret but it's not,it's because I just don't know what to say...

25.10.2012

My laptop went crazy again,I might not online today and maybe tomorrow too because it's Eid day(the same as in 'My Diary (5)')...I hung out with A and S today,I had fun though I didn't talk so much because I don't have anything to say(maybe)...but really,I did have fun...thanks guys..I was observing A and S and my theory(in '4th Member?') was true and luckily A didn't ask about it...I gotta say,from my point of view,I did kinda act like I wanted but not the being-quite-act,it was when I talked... :)

26.10.2012

It's Eid day!!! I had fun today...A and S didn't come to my house,though I already invited them...Something funny happened today,my cousin's baby boy wanted me to carry him,for a few times...it was a bit awkward for me because I never carry a baby before..Luckily I didn't drop him..LOL..

27.10.2012

My laptop is still not working,I have to take it to a shop,maybe on Monday.I tried to fix it yesterday but to no avail.I'm kinda sad and pissed off to find out that I might not be able to online at home for a few days..I don't know what's the problem or is this a sign that I shouldn't think about the sad part of my secret??I don't know...

28.10.2012

I dreamed about X this morning but it was a short one,nothing special...it's strange,right??I didn't think about her before...I was actually hoping to dream about someone else but I got her..how unfortunate...

THANKS,

ZAC

MY DIARY (155)

18.10.2012
OMG!!!!There are 2 things that kinda make me pissed off today.First,my sister,I talked a few words to her and she talked to me a lot.I was like "WTH?I said a few words and you think I will listen to every word you say?" but I didn't say it to her face.I mean,I'm still who I was,I'm still being quite...duh!...Second,is my brother,he asked me to help him do some research for retail.He wanted to open his own shop.And suddenly,he want me to work with him.I know it's a good thing but I don't think I can work with him,I can't barely stay with him for a day and he wants me to work with him?And just now,he insisted that I install What's App on my phone,so that we can communicate easily...WTH!!..I mean,I could help him a bit and I did but I don't think I can work with him...

20.10.2012
My computer when crazy this past few days.I don't know what's the problem...but I thinks it's kinda okay now(hopefully),I might online again tonight or tomorrow...

21.10.2012
I had fun today,my computer is getting better,so I online for a few hours.I will try to update my blog tomorrow.I did something crazy today,it was raining this afternoon and there wasn't any thunder or lightning,so I decided to let it pour on me...yeah,I was standing in the rain,I twirled and just enjoyed the moment,it was fun,truly...I was very spontaneous ,I rarely did something like that...my family don't know about it(I think) LOL... and right now,I'm watching 'Hairspray' on tv... :)

THANKS,
ZAC

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16.10.2012
Tonight,we had a surprise party for my sister's birthday.It's not a big party,just me and my family.We all had a great time,though there's a few things I wish I have but I didn't but it's ok because,there's a reason why I didn't have it,so I'm fine with it and I really had fun tonight,I laughed so hardly when we were playing with the cake's cream.... :)

THANKS,
ZAC

My Drawing...the latest..latest

If you know who this person is,you can leave your guesses on the comment below...

THE MAKING OF HOUSE MODEL PT. 2

 There's a few changes a made,just to make it look better....

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14.10.2012
I haven't write anything for the past few days because I was kinda busy with editing my novel and I continue making the house model,I almost finish it...but the main reason is,I don't know what to write...I gotta say,I'm getting worst lately,what I mean is,I'm more quite and isolated myself more often...I just realized it today,actually....and as I always said,I'm gonna find a way ti fix it..sometimes I get annoyed hearing myself saying that because sometimes I didn't do anything or I couldn't find a solution to fix thing...You what else I hate?Myself,I hate myself right now because I'm suppose to be happy,the secret I'm keeping is a happy one,though yes,there is a sad part but it's not the time yet,I still have a couple of weeks to be happy....so,I will find a way....I just hope I would and I hope god will help me too...

THANKS,
ZAC

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8.10.2012
Earlier today,I went to the 7-Eleven to buy a credit top-up.There were a few girls at the counter.I asked the first girl for the credit and while I was waiting for her to do it,I went to the back to buy some candy and when I got back to the counter,the other girl scanned my candy,so I pay for it but she didn't scanned my top-up,so I wait and instead of asking me,she asked the other girl why I was still standing and when I saw it,I quickly about the top-up and you know what she said?She said "Oh,you can talk?I thought you can't.What planet are you from?...WTH!..but me,being a stupid polite boy,just laugh and walk away.I should slap that girl in the face.She didn't know the different of being weird...

9.10.2012
My sister starts to realize that I'm being different.She asked me why,she thought maybe I need some space,that they're bugging me but all I said was "Nothing".I couldn't say that I'm keeping a secret or I need them to listen to me,it might be weird or awkward.After a few times she asked me and I gave the same answer,we then decided to change the topic..

THANKS,
ZAC

MY DIARY (151)

6.10.2012

Thank you all for your wishes.I really appreciate it... J...I think this process of making myself who I was,might take sometimes because I don’t know why but every time I try to be as usual,something happen that pissed me off,kinda...so I think it will take a while...

7.10.2012

I went to my work place this afternoon to pick up my check for my last month’s salary.Baldy told me that he fired the new girl because she steal stuff... :O..quite shocking and now baldy work alone while waiting for a new worker....I gotta say,honestly,I kinda miss my job....I’ve been thinking,since that I might forever be like this(not a funny guy),maybe I should just enjoy it,maybe there’s a reason for all this...

THANKS,

ZAC

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ZAC

MY DIARY (150)

4.10.2012

I’m kinda worry lately because I’m sort of becoming a different person and not in a way I wanted.I’m not grumpy but I’m just not the funny guy that I use to be,especially with my family.I don’t know exactly why but I thought maybe because of the secret or maybe influence someone but then I came up with another conclusion,maybe I was somehow mad at my family for not interested in what I’, trying to say.....or it’s just that I’m dying...which is pretty ridiculous,right??..I’m worry that I’m gonna be forever like this,it’s not like I wanted it,but I just couldn’t find a joke or anything funny...but I’m gonna try to find a way to be happy and funny again since that Saturday is my blog’s second birthday.. J...There’s a lot of events this month,besides my blog’s birthday,it’s my sister’s and brother’s birthday and it’s also an Eid day...quite a lot,right???

5.10.2012

Tomorrow is the big day,can’t wait,though I don’t plan on making anything....BTW,right now,I’m trying to find a way to be happy...well,not happy because I am happy,just that I’m not funny anymore,so now,I’m finding a way to make me who I was,the funny guy...wish me luck.....I can’t,I can’t be myself again....I tried but I just can’t...I don’t laugh at funny jokes,though I did smile but I just can’t be funny anymore...I’m gonna take a nap,hopefully everything will be better....I just woke up but I don’t feel any different...a bit better maybe but nothing more...

THANKS,

ZAC

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY MY BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!


It's My Blog 2nd Birthday!!!
Thank you to everyone for viewing and following My Blog.
I hope that this blog will be viewed much more and maybe more comments and followers in the days to come...
And I as admin will try my best to make My Blog more interesting and better...

THANKS,
ZAC

THE BIG DAY!!!!!!!

TOMORROW IS THE BIG DAY!!!!!
MY BLOG'S 2ND BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!
~6 OCTOBER 2012~

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28.9.2012
Today,I feel happy but a bit sad.I'm happy because I got what I want but I feel sad because it would be the last for a long time...but hopefully it won't be too long...Tonight,G text me after a long period of time.She asked me how I'm doing and stuff...everything was ok,I told her I'm not working and I'm writing a novel now...but then,I asked her why suddenly she text me and she said she was busy and she also said that she'll text me everyday.The thing is,I asked her that is not because I'm pist off at her or something,I just wanna know why,maybe she want me to buy her phone credit or maybe there's no other guys in her life or she has some important question to ask.Actually,I don't really mind is she didn't text me anymore because,you know how I feel about her,I don't love her,I'm not so sure if I like her anymore after what I found out about her.Right now,she haven't reply my text after I said I didn't intend to ask her to text me everyday.I don't know if she thinks I'm mad at her or what but the truth is,I'm not...I just don't want her to text me everyday....She replied my text,we talked for a while,she asked me about my novel but then we cut off...

29.9.2012
I know I'm suppose to feel happy today because there was something that would make me happy but I don't know why I'm not a very good mood...maybe because G suddenly popped into my life again while I was in a great moment...and I don't know why but every time she text me or something,I don't feel happy,maybe because we sometimes we end our conversation in an argument,instead,I become grumpy ...weird,right??...I'm gonna take a nap,hopefully I will feel better.....I do feel better after I woke up,though G text m again today but I didn't reply because I was too tired... :P

30.9.2012
My nephew came this afternoon but he didn't stay so long because he got school tomorrow...but he did accidentally pisted me off.I didn't mad at him so much....BTW,I don't hate children,I just don't favor them...


THANKS,
ZAC