MY DIARY (81)

15.5.2012
I didn't go to work today because I have "fever" LOL but actually I'm just feeling tired because I cam back home late yesterday,hang out with A & S,we watched a movie,which is 'The Avengers'! Finally I got a chance to watch the movie! :)...So,I'm just staying home,watching tv and online.


16.5.2012
I'm a work right now,as usual,I'm alone and start work an hour early...BTW,I have to act as if I'm recovering from a fever...LOL..Remember that I told you guys that I visited my aunt at the hospital(in My Diary 73),well she got cancer and it was getting worst and just now my sister called me and told me that my aunt just died...but I don't know if I could go to the funeral or not,depends on baldy's decision...we just have to wait and see....At first,he's(baldy) ok with the idea of me got off work early but then,he didn't let me take a day off tomorrow to go to Perak for my aunt's funeral...what an ass!..After I talked to my sister and make a decision to take my day off even if it means it's an unpaid leave,I text baldy and he said 'ok,just go'...I don't if he's mad or not..but I don't care because this is my father's young sister's funeral,so I have to be there...


17.5.2012
We didn't make it to the funeral and we have to go to early and didn't go to the ceremony because they'll want to do tonight,and I have to go to work tomorrow,so as my sisters,so we came home early....even though we didn't go to the ceremony but at least we tried our best to be there....And now I'm at home...I hope she'll rest in peace....I don't know what would happen tomorrow between me and baldy...if he wants to fire me or anything,I don't really care...


THANKS,
ZAC
ZAC

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12.5.2012
I haven't told you guys this but G and I texted each other sometimes,but mostly she started it...She asked me about my application last Tuesday and I told her I didn't get in,so I asked the same question and she also didn't get in but she didn't send an appeal like I did...when I asked her why,she said she don't want to talk about it....I respect that,so I didn't ask her that question again,even though I would like to know why because it's kinda ridiculous for not trying to send an appeal....maybe she's giving up...I don't know but if I'm at her place,with a good grade like her,I would try to apply at a lot of colleges or university that have what I want...sometimes I feel like she's the one who makes her life complicated....pretty sad,right??but it's her life,so she can do whatever she wants...as long as she didn't drag me with her in her complicated life...LOL


13.5.2012
I could sense that today,the customer will come and collect his spectacles because I heard baldy mentioned his name(I think) on the phone while he was calling someone...Argh!!!!I'm definitely dead!Lets hope he'll collect it when I'm not here...Earlier today,A said something about something that makes me realize who I become now..a different person...a better person...I'm not saying I hate who I was but I like who I am more..because even though I'm alone and not in a relationship,I'm happier,more confident,braver(I think).I know you guys might think I'm bluffing but I'm not,it's true...I am becoming better...So,to those who pushed me away,ignoring me because I'm not the same level as they are,I would like to say..thank you...sincerely..thank you because if you didn't do what you did,I wouldn't be who I am and I wouldn't find people who give me something that I never thought I had,and that is courage...if not,I think I would still be the same lame guy,who have to pretend to be someone else just to be accepted by people...now,I'm happier,I'm being myself and better...so thank you for those who pushed me away,thank you for those who helped me become better and thank you to my best friends for supporting me.... :)


THANKS,
ZAC

MY DIARY (79)

11.5.2012
I'm still worry(you know why)...I really hope nothing bad will happen....Lately,I've been busy writing my novel,so I don't really have time to read 'To Kill A Mocking Bird'......but I did read a few pages today...


THANKS,
ZAC

MY DIARY (78)

10.5.2012
Since that Mother's Day is around the corner,I just realize that I never tell you all about my mother,we used to call her 'Mama'.Well,my mama,she died when I was 5,she got cancer.Actually,I don't really remember her..I remember her face from a picture but I don't remember her voice,her laugh,the way she talk,her cooking and some other thing....but I do remember one thing,I'm not so sure when but I remember she fed me porridge.She was sitting on the floor,in front of the bedroom door and I sat in front of her and my sister said that her cooking was delicious,she could be firm sometimes,she was patience,she loved us all and took care of us very well...I don't really know what else to say about my mother.I just thought you all should know that I don't have a mother anymore(I don't want you guys to make a speculation about why I never said anything about my mother before)and since that Mother's Day is coming... :)...The customer haven't collect his spectacles yet... :O ...I'm so worry right now but I hope everything will be fine....


THANKS,
ZAC

MY DIARY (77)

8.5.2012
Back to work...I still feel tired maybe because I didn't get enough rest.Time moves pretty fast yesterday...I'm a bit worry because I don't know whether the customer already took his spectacles or not.If he did,then it's kinda a good thing because baldy haven't said anything about it but if he didn't,then that's a big problem...I really hope he did take it already....OMG!!!He haven't take it!!!!I'm so dead...Hopefully he'll take it when I'm not here...Argh!!!!!....I stopped reading 'Mansfield Park',I didn't even finish it yet but maybe someday.Since last week,I started reading 'To Kill A Mocking Bird' by Harper Lee again and I read it today.You know what,since I finished reading 'Inheritance' and 'The Secret:The Magic',I never went to a bookstore anymore.I didn't do it purpose,maybe it's just a coincidence or maybe......I don't know...but I will buy a new book...one day...because it's kinda hard to start reading a new book after spending a lot of time reading a series book....I have a bad news,I didn't get accepted to any university.I checked my application yesterday...but I already sent my appeal...I really hope I get it this time....but if not,I will find another college or anything to continue my studies....


9.5.2012
I'm alone at work and the spectacles isn't collected yet... :O...Baldy is back....I spent my day writing for my novel...


THANKS,
ZAC