MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (57)

7.2.2014
I don't know why but today I've been all quite...I'm not mad or sad but I just don't feel talkative...I'm kinda worry about it because you all know that this has happened before and it had happened once that last for quite a while...so I'm scared that it might happen again..but I hope not....I should tell you something,I know that I said I won't think about it but I should tell you that Y is kinda sorta sees me as the sissy guy too..I won't tell you how that happens...but it happened...but I don't think I want to think about it so much...

9.2.2014
I went to this award ceremony yesterday with my sister...it was fun because I never went to an award show before...Now I'm back to my new house...how horrible is that?

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6.2.2014
I'm home for the weekend..yea!...I was talking to A last night about what happened yesterday...and he said somethings that made me realize that I was being silly for being sad and a few inspirational speeches that he gave me...It also made me realize that I shouldn't write what I wrote yesterday about my housemates because you might think they're bunch of assholes,but the truth is they're not...So,I decided not to push myself so hard on trying to be a better person,I'm just gonna let it happen on it's way...Thanks A for everything!...BTW,I asked one of my housemate to teach me how to play guitar...so I'm gonna bring my guitar to my new house...I hope I could finally know how to play it properly...

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5.2.2014
I'm going back home tomorrow...yea!...though I am kinda happy,I still feel a little sad,not because of I'm leaving my new house or something,it's just that I'm starting to be my old self again,the one that I don't wanna be anymore(I've mentioned about this before)...The only thing that made me aware of this is when my roommate mocked something that I said(but not in a horrible way) because I said it in a sissy way...I didn't realize I did that...It's really pissed me off not because they mocked,but because I start to be that sissy guy again and I didn't realize it...maybe because I feel too comfortable again...I really hope I will not be that guy anymore...I know you must be thinking that I'm crazy for talking like this but I really wish I could be a better person instead of that sissy guy...I hope you'll understand...

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1.2.2014
It's the first day of February 2014!...I'm going back to my new house tomorrow..bummer...I forgot to tell you guys something.Remember that I told you that I sent my manuscript to one of the publishing company?Well,I got a reply from them!...but unfortunately,it was a rejection letter...they said my novel wasn't good enough because of several reasons....I don't really feel sad,I'm not suprise either because I know mine wasn't that good...but the thing is,I feel kinda proud because they actually read my novel and on the letter,there was the title of ,y novel!..how amazing is that?!..LOL....So..I don't know what else to do,maybe I'll try to send it to another publishing company...Me and my best friends are going out tonight!..

2.2.2014
I had great times with my best friends yesterday,had a huge dinner meal...we were so fulled!...haha...I'm not going back to college today because my class starts at 2 pm tomorrow,so I'm going back to my new house tomorrow morning...Tonight I went out for little shopping and dinner with my sister...I'm not feeling very well,I don't know why...maybe because I'm just tired or maybe because I'm going back to college tomorrow..I'm not sure which one or maybe both...

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27.1.2014
I'm back in college..I arrived at my new house yesterday night and again,I felt very sad....I slept late last night because I can't sleep,so I just read the novel that I bought last year....You know what,I think I left something at my house...my heart...and it's not a good thing...It's 10 pm right now and I'm lying on my bed in my bedroom at my new house..I don't really feel too sad anymore,maybe because I managed to go through classes today without any trouble,hopefully tomorrow too...or maybe because I was chatting with Y again tonight and that she said I'm a shy guy.. :)....Though it's maybe ridiculous but I have to say that I'm kinda miss my old hostel...I miss the time that I spent there and the memories that was built there...but maybe there's a reason why I wasn't meant to stay there anymore... :)

28.1.2014
I was suppose to go home today but unfortunately,,y lecturer decided to have a class tomorrow morning,so I have to stay for one more night.. "awesome"..but somehow,I don't feel too sad..maybe because this afternoon at college,I bought Y a giant fried sosage because I promised to buy her that because she helped me checked for my result and about my pre-subject registration...I was kinda shy because I gave it in front of my housemates and a few of my classmates...but they said I was a gentleman for doing that...I talked to Y just now and she said she feels embarrassed but like a shy kinda embarrass,not like a horrible embarrass..but she thanked me anyway..but she also said that she was worried what my girl friends might say since they were there too but I don't think they notice..but I convinced her that they won't say anything...You see,the only reason why she was worried was because it happened once last semester,I don't know if I told you about it,but it was a misunderstand,my girl friends didn't say anything bad about her or angry at her,they just stared at her because they know I like Y...I really hope Y would stop thinking that my girl friends might talk something bad about her because they are not like that and maybe they all could be friends...but I still don't know how to convince her that...BTW,I can't wait to go home tomorrow!

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