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31.8.2012
Today is our Independence Day,so,HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY TO MALAYSIA!!!!! and my family are preparing for our open house but this time for my relatives and my sisters' friends but unfortunately I'm at work all of my family is on holiday because of Independence Day.."great"..BTW,today was suppose to be my last day but I gave the resignation letter 5 days late,so I have to stay until 5th of September and I told baldy that if he couldn't find my replacement,I'll stay until 14th of September...One other thing,the house model is still in a working progress..LOL..

1.9.2012
The open house went well yesterday...I watched the movie 'Stand By Me' this morning.I've seen it a couple of times before but this morning when I watched it,I just realize that neither one of us(me and my best friends)are like Chris,a character played by River Phoenix.He's brave,quite mature,kind to his friends and he protect his friends.Non of us have that in on person,especially being able to protect others,though A was like a big brother because of his appearance(sorry A),he's friendly and he's the one who drive us if we're going out but still,I haven't seen him protecting us and S,I don't think he could.Maybe because we haven't face a situation where we have to protect each other,though,I don't know if A and S remember this but when we were in high school,sometimes I did try to protect them,if someone said something bad at them,I will say something back and that's why I feel like I should be the one like Chris but the problem is,I couldn't,I'm not brave or strong enough...but I hope,I really hope that if circumstances force me to do it(hopefully not),I could do it...

2.9.2012
These past few days,I've been listening to sad songs and reading sad quotes...I don't know why,maybe because I don't want to feel happy at work(you know why)...but I'm happy at home,though sometimes I tried to be happy,not because of my family but just I don't feel happy sometimes...it's weird,right??....Me and A was suppose to be going out tonight but I haven't got a confirmation from A....Me and A are confirmed to hang out tonight...Uh-oh,I think I will habe to key-in the customers' records because baldy asked me to arrange the new records in alphabetical order.. :O

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ZAC

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30.8.2012(1)
I don't know if I told you guys this but I started reading 'Inheritance' for the second time,it's been a while now and I'm close towards the end...

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ZAC

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28.8.2012(3)
Yesterday I didn't do much thing but I did continue making that house model,by myself...S is already gone back to Penang and A will leave to Pahang next week(for real this time)..I've made my decision that I'm not gonna meet my classmates again because I behave badly when I'm around them and it's not like I have a lot of things to talk about or them to me,so what's the point??It's not like I'll be depress if I didn't see them,more like the opposite way...So,yeah,I think it's the right thing to do...

29.8.2012(2)
I feel like I wanna runaway from my work place because there's this Malay woman,baldy's friend who work at an eye specialist(I mentioned in 'My Diary (107)'),she asked me about my studies and stuff and she also said "congratulation" to me...I feel so guilty...Now I feel grateful because(I'm just gonna make it short)I have to look for this thing and I couldn't find it at first but when I almost give up,I found it..I was so grateful to God for helping me...Hopefully nothing will happen that might ruin my mood...

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ZAC

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25.8.2012(6)
I still think about the way I behaved at my open house,you can say that I'm still frustrated to find out that I still haven't change..BTW,S is leaving tomorrow and I thought I want to ask them out...I already did,actually but there's no confirmation yet...we've planned to meet at McDonald at midnight today.I feel kinda guilty because A and S are going to their relative's house and they must be tired to meet tonight..but we'll see about it..

26.8.2012(5)
We went out yesterday night,well midnight more likely..I had fun yesterday talking about ghost stories(real events) and making jokes about a lot of things...though the actually reason I wanted to see them is because I want their opinion about how I'm suppose to change myself but we were sort of distracted because of the stories,so that subject didn't came up but maybe just for a short while...but I don't mind because when I think about it again,this problem is something that I have to deal with by myself..the important thing is,the 3 of us had a wonderful time yesterday.. :) *2 thumbs up*

THANKS,
ZAC

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24.8.2012(7)
Yesterday,my open house went well,though it was awkward,awkward as hell because I haven't seen them for quite a long time and before we went to my house,we had to go to 2 other houses and they were talking about studies and stuff,so I just kept quite at both houses until at my house  but still I didn't talk so much.I sucks at being host of a party.Maybe because I was too shy I guess...but also I kinda hate myself yesterday because I was sort of being who I was in high school,which is I hope I'll never be again.I never told you all about this but when I was younger,I was kinda like a sissy lala,though not on purpose,I hate who I was,that's why I want to change and I thought I have but I was wrong.I wish I could turn back time and not act as I was yesterday..BTW,S wasn't at my open house because he went to his relative's house but we(the 3 of us) went out yesterday night and watched a movie,'The Bourne Legacy',that movie is awesome!..but I'm not gonna write  a review,sorry guys.. :P..I'm at work right now...

THANKS,
ZAC