Pages

Sunday, August 13, 2017

GOODBYE DADDY

Hey guys, how are you?

So this week I’m gonna share with you all what happened 2 weeks ago and why I didn’t post anything during that time.

Please bear with me while reading this if I somewhat sounded too serious or dramatic or ridiculous because to be honest, it’s not easy for me to write.

“Then why would you wanna write?” You ask?

It’s because I think you all should know about this and it’s a big thing....though most of you might already know it from my social media.

Anyway, I should begin my story.....

But before that, just so you know that I’m not gonna write the whole thing from A to Z because I’m getting tired of it because I have been telling it to a lot of people a lot of time.

So this post will mostly be about a summary of what happened.

My dad was admitted to the hospital on 27.8.2017 at about 4 in the morning because the doctors said that he had lung infection. Since my dad is old and his heart is no longer strong, the doctors suggested to using a tube through his throat to help him breath while they try to cure the lungs, but in order to do that, my dad had to be sedated aka deep sleep or more dramatic, coma. So we all agreed, in hope that the treatment will cure my dad’s lungs. However, the doctors did say that there’s a high chance my dad will never wake up. Nevertheless, my siblings and I agreed.

Fast forward to about 30 hours later and the doctors said that my dad wasn’t doing well. The infection was not decreasing.  Anyhow, we still want the treatment to continue.

Fast forward to the next day, it was night time and I was alone with my dad, same as the day before, because visiting hours has ended, so I accompanied my dad while waiting for my brother because my brother was the one who accompanied my dad till morning. On that day, the doctors said my dad looks okay, though the infection was still there, and they planned to feed my dad the next day.

Fast forward to the next, at the time me and 3 of my sisters came to the hospital. My dad heartbeat was suddenly drastically dropping and I, as the only guy in the family there (because my brother was resting at the waiting room) had to deal with the doctor, who finally informed us that our dad had passed away.

At that time I was feeling weak in the knee but luckily my legs were still strong enough to stand. And I was almost choking when I called one of my sister at her workplace to inform that our dad is no longer alive. I guess it is true that when you say it out loud, that event or situation, it sounded so real.

So that was my “brief” story of what happened.

To be honest, it breaks my heart, but a small part of me glad that I had been there for my dad until he was buried. It was me who was in the hurd with him. So yeah, I’m glad about that.

K was there on the day my dad died, her mother, her sister and 2 of our college friends too.

A couldn’t be there because he was at college, preparing for his exam.

S couldn’t be there because he had some important family matter.

But I’m fine about it because even if they’re there, I wouldn’t have time to talk to them.

Anyway, funny thing is, they were worried about me because they think I will keep my feelings to myself like I always do.

Fast forward to present day, I’m feeling much better now but same as my sister, we’re still unable to get used to not seeing our dad around the house.

The reason why I didn’t post anything here is because I honestly didn’t know how to write this. I’m not saying that I’m doing great now but at least I kinda know what to write.

So, that’s all for this week.

Please pray for my dad.

This week I wanna know, have you lost anyone close to you? How did you handle it? Or what advice would you give me to face this?


Leave your opinion in the comment below. Share this post if you want to. And follow BATC for more post.

Love Always,
Zac

Below are the links to my social media, so GO FOLLOW!:


2 comments:

Unknown said...

I too lost my dad just 4 months ago to cardiac arrest. And that too so suddenly. He was fine all this time and suddenly he had pain in his chest and started having difficulty in breathing. He struggled for half an hour but the doctor didn't attend to him. Due to the doctor's negligence we lost him. And obviously it has been hard since then for the entire family.. Specially my mom as he was like her best friend. But trust me its true time heals everything, but definitely the scar will stay, but it gets better. It would still hurt but it wouldn't be the same intensity as when the incident was fresh. Just stay strong that's it.

zacrin said...

Sorry for your lost Shahana, and thank you for your advice.