MY DIARY (165)

15.11.2012
This morning,something great happened,someone replied my tweet! :) .....and it makes me realized that I'm not really alone,God is with me and granted my wish....I really,really grateful for it... :) ...So far,everything's ok,though I'm still not very talkative,I don't know why.....Tonight,when me and my sister was going to pick my other sister from work,which isn't so far away ffrom my housr(we went ther walking) and on the way,there was this black colored dog,running towards us and it tried to attack us.. :O..luckily we brought an umbrella and there was 2 of us.We finally managed to drove it away and fortunately,my brother went and pick up my sister at work because we didn't do it after what happened and in addition,there were a few more dogs next to my sister's work place....though it was scary but it's quite funny experience for me...LOL

THANKS,
ZAC

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14.11.2012
Maybe the reason why God haven't or didn't give me someone special or someone who understand me,simply because God knows I can somehow sooth myself,somehow find a way to make myself happy again,alone but strong..God knows though I have no one to talk to,no one who understands my feeling,no one who help calm myself but I will somehow manage to do it myself..like right now,I feel better than yesterday(so far)....I hope everything will be much better..so wish me luck...

THANKS,
ZAC

MY DIARY (163)

13.11.2012
I was kinda quite today,most of the time....my sisters think that I might be mad at them.I wanna tell them that I'm not mad at them,I'm mad at myself but I'm afraid they might not understand,so I just leave it that way.I'm still kinda "haunted" by what I did yesterday.I can't believe that I did that rude thing,I really wish I could turn back time....I was thinking about going back to being talkative,just to make things clear to my family,I mean that I'm not mad at them but maybe I'll sort of limit my words,try not to talk too much,so that I won't make a lot of mistakes...Hope everything will be ok.....Right now,I really wish I have someone to talk to,someone who really understand my feelings but someone who isn't my family,someone I can talk about anything....unfortunately I haven't found one... :(

THANKS,
ZAC

MY DIARY (162)

11.11.2012

I can’t wait to watch MTV Europe Music Awards tomorrow morning at 4 a.m....I slept this late afternoon for a couple of hours,hopefully I won’t get sleepy tomight... J..Two of sisters are kinda involve in show biz.One worked as an intern at a production company and already have a tv show that credit her name on screen....congrats to her..and the other one,sort of like a personal assistant for a celebrity but it’s not very official and she said she don’t really want to because she said she doesn’t really like that guy(the celeb) but I think she likes him... :P ..well,it’s good for her actually.....When I hear they talk about their work and celebrities,well I’m lying if I say I don’t get jealous,I do,kinda but it’s ok for me because most of the celebrities they met,isn’t really my favourite.Maybe if I am jealous,it could be because they might be popular but it also makes me determine to finish and hopefully published my novel...wish me luck... :)

12.11.2012

You know,the word “I’m here for you no matter what”,for me,means a lot.Either I say it or someone say it to me..I don’t remember if I ever said that to people and I don’t recall if anyone ever said that to me either...but it’s ok,maybe when the time comes,I will hear it from someone.. J ..I know A is gonna read this and he might say it the next time we meet but I hope he won’t because I know he’ll do it because he read my blog....and besides,I know he’ll help me out even though he didn’t say it... J....Something happened,you see,my sister,my dad and I was trapped in a traffic jam.We were on the right lane and suddenly,there was this 4 Wheel Drive tried to cut the line in front of us and they were so close to our car until we almost hit each other but my sister didn’t let them and then I did something crazy.I showed my middle finger..they honked at us and then cut us on the right side of the road and honked again and shout at us but I respond with a stare,they were furious but I’m not scared because they started it...the reason I’m telling you this isn’t because I wanna brag about it,I just wanna share because honestly,I’m not proud of what I did,I shouldn’t do it.That’s not who I am,I’m not a brown nose or a gangster.And one other thing that’s on my head is my decision to be quite again because from my point of view,the more I talk,the more mistakes I make...So,right now,I’m not in a very good mood....

THANKS,

ZAC

MY DIARY (161)

7.11.2012

I finally changed my blog’s title.I really hope you all like it because I do..LOL..I don’t know why but I have this very strange feeling.It’s not the same as the one I had before,this time is totally different but I don’t know what it is...but it’s not a bad feeling,I think it’s a good one.I don’t know exactly what it is,it’s kinda like excitement or maybe nervous or something....it’s really strange...

9.11.2012

I went shopping with my sisters today,though I didn’t buy anything and not just because I’m broke but also because I left my wallet at home..how “amazing”.....I just found out something crazy.My sister and I’m pretty sure most of the girls out there,they force their feet to fit in a shoe.... :O ..how shocking was that??I mean,they don’t mind that it hurts as long as it’s beautiful...WTH.. :O....BTW,all the time I was there,I was like “I’m gonna find a job,I’m gonna find a job so that I can shop,”... LOL

10.11.2012

My sister plan to go for a vacation next month but it still not confirm....She asked me to look for a place to stay,like I did when we were going to Cameron Highlands....I don’t wanna say much,since that I’m not working yet and my family are the one who’s gonna pay for everything...LOL..

THANKS,

ZAC