MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (16)

11.6.2013
My sister said that I shouldn't be mad at friends for not coming to birthday party...well,it's a lie if say I'm not but I don't feel it anymore,I'm not mad at them anymore,just that it open my eyes to make sure that I'm not gonna put my hopes on them...because all I would get is frustration,so I hope they would do the same thing to me...So I'm not mad at them anymore and since something happened to me earlier today but I won't tell you what it is(sorry) but it does make me kinda happy,made me forget about what had happened on last Sunday...so,yeah,I'm happier now.... :)...Tomorrow I might go for a shopping again..haha...BTW,I haven't ask S about how's his job was so far...that doesn't make me a horrible friend,right???....

THANKS,
ZAC

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (15)

8.6.2013

Bought all the stuff for my birthday party tomorrow...I’ve invited all my college friends yesterday but none of them reply yet..I didn’t invite my high school friends since they probably won’t even remember me because they didn’t wish my birthday...and besides,if I invited them,I’m pretty sure I’ll feel awkward...A wouldn’t be here tomorrow,since he’s still in Pahang.. :( ...but S said he might come...My sister said I don’t have to invite my other relative except my uncle and aunt because it’s my 21 birthday,I should celebrate it with my friends but I want to because I know that my college friends might not come tomorrow because a lot of them live far from me....but I just did what my sister asked me to...

9.6.2013

I party just finished....the person who came to my birthday party was just my aunt and uncle....pretty sad,hah??...S couldn’t come because he went out with his mom to buy a new shirt since he starts his first job tomorrow...Good luck S!!!....but he did stop by for a short while to give me my present... J....my college friends didn’t come,not even one...Actually,I knew that this would happen since this afternoon,when no one ask me how to get to my house.....I was kinda pissed off at my sister...but not anymore because for my sister,maybe she didn’t aspect that my friends wouldn’t come....I guess my college friends is no different than my high school friends...K always remind me to not forget about them,and one day,I want to say to her that I won’t forget my friends,I never was,not even my high school friends,but I know she will...that’s just who they are,they always remind us not to forget but they are the one who will forget because they don’t need our help anymore....but though none of my friends come,I still enjoy my birthday with my family... J...thank u for celebrating with me...

One of my college friends called me just now and he apologized and wish me a happy birthday...I just said thank u and ok...

THANKS,

ZAC

I'M ALWAYS THERE...

I write this for a certain people(I’m not gonna mention names),i’m not writing this because I’m mad or something,just that I wanna tell you that I’m there though I know you don’t see me or even notice my existence...haha...maybe it’s my fault for not being out loud or to try to get your attention but you see,I’m not that kind of person(no offends)...I prefer to watch you from far(not creepily),just waiting for the right time to maybe say hi,when you might notice it....The point is,I just want you know that I’m always there,between those tons of people... J...I know it’s silly to write it here but who knows,maybe one day you came across this blog and read this particular update and finally notice me(though I’m not putting my hope so high)....Well,that’s all I wanna say for now...For you and everyone who read this,I hope you’ll have a happy life...

THANKS,

ZAC

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (14)

5.6.2013

Sorry for not updating anything for a while,it’s just that I’m kinda busy with my final exam which ended yesterday...yea!...and I also have finished my first semester after all the sweat and tears and stress,i finally did it...There isn’t so much thing to say,just that tomorrow is my 21st birthday.. :P...I’ve plan to have a birthday for me but I have decide the day yet since my family are busy this week..so,we’ll see...BTW,honestly,I don’t really feel relief about finishing my first semester,maybe because I still have 5 more semesters to go and my second semester starts in 3 weeks...but I feel happy because I could stay home for 3 weeks... J...and today to watched ‘Now You See Me’,that movie is amazingly awesome!... J... 

THANKS,

ZAC

MY DIARY:LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT (13)

19.5.2013
I'm at my hostel right now..("great")..My plan was to go back to my hostel tomorrow,since my exam is on the afternoon but my girl friends asked me to come back today because they said they wanted to study together...but none of them came to meet me though they know that I'm back...and  K apologized to me because her father wanted to meet her tonight,suddenly,because she didn't go back home this week...The thing is,I'm made at them for making me come back here when I should   be at home with my family and my family wouldn't mind if I want to go back to my hostel tomorrow,in the first place...can u imagine how pissed off I am??...but when K asked me if I'm mad(silly question),I said I'm not..WTH?!!!!.....I don't know,maybe because I don't want her to feel   guilty and make her lose her focus on study...but I was suppose to say what I wanted to say,let it out of my chest because I feel mad at them and sad that I'm here when I was to be with my family....

20.5.2013
OMG!...Today is the first paper for my final exam and I already made a silly mistake!..how "amazing"...I hope my grade won't sucks....I haven't tell the truth to my girl friends,I just don't know why but I just couldn't say "yes,I'm mad at you,"...I have to tell you all that maybe some of you might think that I'm acting ridiculous for being mad at them,since that for you,it's just a small matter but for me,it's a huge deal,I don't know if you all realize it but I'm very close with my family,a bit spoiled maybe...so,that's why I'm mad at them...and maybe some people might say that there's no different between staying at home and staying at my hostel..but actually there is,I'm more comfortable at home than here,in a lot of ways,though I've stayed here for many months...and they took that comfortably by asking me to come back here early to study on my own..how genius was that??(cynically)

21.5.2013
Done my second paper..I feel like I did it well but we never know...Tomorrow is my third paper and  also one of the hardest subject....so wish me luck...About me and K and my girl friends,we're cool...I said what I wanted to say(most of it) and now everything is fine... :)...Tomorrow after my third paper,I'll be going home..yea!

THANKS,
ZAC